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I’m here for less than a week, go out at 10pm to get some grub and get followed by two different cops. The first pig left me after I made my third right turn, then another pig comes out of nowhere and follows me to my driveway. He drives about a block past me, then I see him turn around to come back. I open the garage, get out of my car and give him a “fuck you” wave and a smile as he rides his brake past me for the second time. He didn’t even wave back, hahahahaha!!!

I don’t want to say that other four letter word just yet because it could jinx me, but I’m falling hard for PJ. Last Saturday I drove up to Iowa to see her, I was trying to get over a cold I had and still felt like shit on the drive up. I only packed enough clothes for 2 days because I wasn’t sure what to expect with her or with how my body felt due to the cold. Now it’s Friday morning and I’m still here….holy shit! She has two boys, ages 14 and 12. I’ve dated two girls who had kids but they were only 4 and 5 years old so that was another question mark. Could my loner self handle all that comes with a small, single parent family?

Five days later and I already have an answer and it’s a resounding “fuck yes!!!” I’ve never met such a beautiful, smart, positive thinking single mom of two. She makes me smile just thinking about her. Her kiddos are great and they think the world of me. The last two nights I’ve had the chance to hang with them while she’s at work. I never thought I would have so much fun. I took them to the store, bought some vegan food and cooked them dinner. They aren’t vegan so I was a little worried they would hate what I made, but they loved it (they even asked me to cook it the next night too!). I’m a kid at heart so we have a lot of things to talk about. Video games, music, sports, etc. Last night I sat up with her 14 year old and talked to him about what’s going on in his life…it was really fun. We stayed up past his bed time so I felt bad about that, but before he went to bed he told me that he’s never had a father figure in his life and that he feels like I’m both a good friend and father figure…wow! As I walked upstairs I started getting choked up, I’ve always felt like an immature 35 year old ass, but those words hit me really hard, it was such a wonderful feeling. :)

Today PJ and I talked about me moving in with them next month. It’s so easy to talk to her and we are always on the same page (not to mention the fact that she’s so fucking gorgeous, I could stare into her eyes forever). The last couple of guys she dated were complete assholes to her (let’s not talk about them now), she deserves the best in life and I really feel like I’m the one that could give that to her. We are trying to take it slow but everything seems so right that it’s hard to remember to keep at that pace. Anyway, I just had to get this out because I feel so fucking happy and positive about everything. I could say so much more but I’ll stop for now. Sorry for interrupting the dashboard flow, I shall close my laptop, roll over in bed and snuggle with her now. If you read this late night babbling, I sincerely thank you for doing so! :)

Goodnight.

Nut. Busted.